Ponderings

when there seem to be no easy solutions - thoughts on questions or problems facing both christians and non-christians

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Help!!

Is there a tradeoff between perfectionism and personal relationships?

I thrive on doing things correctly. Which can be hard in group work sometimes where each thinks he is right.

I am learning alot about working in a group here. Still far from attaining enlightenment. I always want to contribute and do my part, but I also want to see the group heading in the right direction and doing things correctly (i.e. my way). I am slowly learning to try to change my perspective (lots of conditions!) and to take other people's views into account. It's hard and it's driving me way out of my comfort zone, but I cannot give up.

In moments of frustration I am thankful for friends who listen to me gripe and do not criticise or condemn but are patient with me.

I realise that the words "don't complain, criticise, condemn" are really difficult to put into practice here.

Rick Warren was saying that when God wants to teach you how to love, He doesn't put you with loveable people. He puts you with unloveable people. When he wants to teach you how to be patient He puts you in situations that test your patience. I am (reluctantly) thankful that He is disciplining me. Please, work your good in these situations and help me to give thanks in all things!!

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Freedom

When will I be free?

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Plea

Realising that discouragements always come but it is your attitude and willingness to change, with God's power, that counts.

Realising that people always let you down and that you will always be letting others down.

I hope that there is still time for improvement in my life. I really pray that I will be able to grow and become the passionate, idealistic yet practical woman of God He wants me to be. I really pray that I will be able to be focussed, and not give in to my greatest weakness. I really pray that through me He will inspire others.

God I want that real heart for You, not just a mouth that talks about You, not just a body that does things for You, but I want to be able to worship You and go to church to worship You and not just to be endlessly doing. God I really need You to change me. You are shaking me, forcing me to rethink my life, my values, my ideals, my perceptions; bring them in line with Yours and let my goals be closer to Yours for my life. Work in me.